Its a sad point in your life when you believe that the people that you care the most about have abandoned you. But that is another part of life I'm afraid... afraid. I wonder if many of us will ever know the true sense of that word, to be truly afraid of something, or someone... Its a terrifying thought, that we should ever be placed in a position of such fear. I can't think of much to write about tonight..

At work I had a lovely old couple come in... They were telling me how they'd been out for the night and gone to the local Hotel for dinner (Roast Pork, $10.50 per head), and how they'd enjoyed it. Came in for a bottle of white wine before they went home. And I had the thought that it would be wonderful to be like that when you're older... to still have that friendlyness and vitality about you that makes others smile. You meet a lot of elderly people who are grumpy and miserable and it saddens me to think that life has made them like that.

Today's panties: Pink boylegs. X

When we say the world is complex, life is complex... the world is beautiful, life is beautiful... just how complex, and beautiful are the human beings that inhabit the world, life... and everything else?

An online diary that was originally supposed to be a daily record has now turned into an occassional record. But thats life I suppose at some point... you end up with other more important committments, work, relationships, home life. And then theres not much you can do about it. Its just the way it is. Funny how I keep telling myself that recently. Takes the stress out of it though I must admit. Its quite nice to just be able to sit back and enjoy the ride and let the universe work it out for you. Lately I've been talking about the universe quite a bit. Which is suprising for me because I've always believed that you have to work bloody hard for what you want and to hold onto it. But somehow... everything has been working itself out without having to stress over it or worry or be generally concerned. I'm filled with a kind of knowledge that it will work out exactly as I want it and it will be wonderful. Which is incredibly relieiving in an odd kind of way.

The last few days I've spent with the Boy. The Boy is turning out to be perfect in pretty much every way. We laugh and carry on and have fun together. Its been so long since I've smiled this much and the incredible thing is that I never want it to end. Knowing that I've said this now it may be a different story next week. But hey. Thats the spontaneous nature of the world we live in. For now I'm just happy to hold onto the beauty of what this has become, and share part of it with all of you.

Today's panties: None. Underwear is over rated. X

The A - Z of Alcohol (part five)

S is for Soda
That horrible stuff that people have a tendency to put in scotch or vodka, or gin and ruin a perfectly good alcoholic beverage

T is for Tequila
A wonderfully potent and extremely popular drink that is most often associated with Mexico and Mexicans, sitting around, in their sombraros and poncho's and drinking tequila while playing guitar and shooting each other in the foot. Stereotypical, I know, but I find it funny.

U is for
I don't know. Anyone have a decent alcoholic beverage for 'U' ??

V is for Vodka
Perhaps the most versatile and popular drink of all. Coming in many forms from pre mixed to flavoured and in many sizes from cans to bottles to baby bottles. A wonderful drink. Especially when mixed with orange and Galliano and ice, I find.

Work this evening was great, the locals were funny and had their great sense of humour intact, despite the horribleness of the cold wind and rain that was pummelling the area. You see a bloke come in wet and freezing from head to toe, with mud and dirt all over him, and he's got a smile on his face and a spring in his step:

ME: "How are you tonight, love?"
HE: "Doing better now, thankyou darlin"

Although, something resounding funny did happen tonight... a bloke came in and smelled of noodles... and I have an obsession with noodles, they're my little addiction... well, at least its a healthy one (somewhat)! And it was just so good, that I sniffed him... he freaked out and we both ended up laughing hysterically. It was great, funny as hell, to see the look on his face when I leant in and sniffed him... Yeah, I'm a freaky girl.

My pay this week is going to be fantastic, and I may finally be able to do some clothes shopping and put some more money into my savings account. And on top of all that, I get to see the boy on Monday for a couple of days. Life is looking up. And I'm loving every minute.

Today's panties: Red boylegs X

Tonight was a little slow at work, I got called in unexpectedly because a co worker was sick (poor girl, she's a sweetheart) and they needed someone to cover. Who covers better than I do? No one! AHAHAHA! It was a weekday, and it was expected to be slow... but there was so much to do. It hadn't looked like anyone had dusted the wines since I was last there, it was disgusting. Everytime I washed my hands the soap came up black from the dust and grime. And on the positive side, it looks like I won't need a second job... I got offered some more hours for July because a few people are going away, and someone has to cover, and as we've already discussed, no one covers better than I!

I'm positively pinging at the moment, and I swear that has nothing to do with the bag of chips I just ate (not just ANY chips mind you, the most gorgeous, deliciously addictive chips on the face of the planet - Red Rock Deli chips... I just consumed a bag of Dijon Mustard and Honey flavoured and MY GOD I want more!), no no no, my hyperness is due to the fact that I'm so damn happy! I haven't been this happy in a bloody long time and its strange, but I'd almost forgotten what this felt like. And I'm glad to have it back...

So that is my happy rant for this evening, am now attempting to counteract the potato chips I just ate with the largest bottle of water known to man kind. I'm just one big contradiction today.

Today's panties: White lace. X

Back with a vengence!

My body and mind are both surprisingly rejuvenated. An outcome I was not expecting after a weekend away. I was expecting to be resoundingly tired and overworked. And wanting nothing more than to fall back into my bed and sleep for the rest of the week. Yet this is not the case, no no.

The weekend was lovely, time spent indoors in front of the fire and more noticably, in bed, while the rain and wind and storms pelted the windows and the tin roof and made for a very... intense environment indeed. But I'm back, and better than ever. Desperately looking forward to getting back to work and wanting - more than anything at this point - to be back in that lovely bed. I believe I'm going to have to start looking for another job... Hmm... ponderisms afoot.

Today's panties: blue and white stripped boylegs. X